Sorry, I Guess

It's overwhelming, all these feelings inside.
I can't count all the times I've pretended and lied.
I can't keep myself from thinking the things I do,
And I can't help the fact that I'm so see-through.

I'm surrounded by people I can't depend on,
People who are fake and, when needed, are gone.
I thought you'd be different, but evidently not.
So, have I lived up to everything you've sought?

I'm sorry for everything, but I can't apologize
For how I feel, and hiding under this guise.
The way I am now is all because of you,
It's your fault for everything that I've gone through.

I've fought for so long, all for your sake,
But how much more of this can I take?
At the beginning, what we had was real,
But now, you're only pretending to feel.

So go and leave me, do whatever you want,
These memories of you will always haunt
Me because you took so much of my heart,
I can't believe you took it and tore it apart.

So maybe it is my fault, but only because
I kept believing even when no one else was.
I guess false hope never gets you anywhere,
I'm so very sorry for just wanting you to care.